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Motivation is not only a delicate idea but also incredibly fascinating one. This time of year seems to be bursting with it. Maybe it’s the end of the year wrapping up or the fact family members will soon be bombarding you with profound questions like “What are you doing with your life?” or “What comes next?” during the holiday gatherings.
If you’re anything like me (dedicated slacker, web-dependant, and vaguely aware of the line between adult and overgrown child) this part of the season is a paradox. Events and plans are bubbling up all over personal calendars and facebook but at the same time, absolutely nothing is happening except waiting for those events to take place. Unless of course you’re one of those with finals lurking over your head. (Bless you, child.)
How untrue is that though? Sure the BIG EVENT isn’t taking place RIGHT now but there’s a process that leads up to it. The planning and preparation. That’s the part I tend to want to ignore. The process in which I pray my half thought out down activities will some how cultivate my skills into Go-mode.
It isn’t any secret that I struggle with a heavy depression and recovery process of a severe eating disorder. I don’t take prescribed medication, unless you count herbs and exercise, and stopped seeing a therapist once a week when I went for my 500 hr RYT through Sunstone Yoga. Many close to me witnessed the ups and downs this last year but were respectful enough to give me my space when it came to healing. I for sure want to give back to them, to everyone, this next year by doing my best and being my strongest.
Early in January, I will be working as a model for an incredible photographer here in Fort Worth. Now, modeling isn’t anything new to me but this intimate shoot will be something I never thought I was capable of. A nude shoot is very -very- common even when the finished project shows little to no skin. It will def be the same concept but focusing on shadows.
Normally, modeling gigs send me into a frenzy of building strong workout schedules, healthy clean eating, and minor doubts of self perception. I keep to myself to prepare but that just won’t cut it in 2014. This year I will be Strong. I won’t focus on the photoshoot as my end goal.
No, I want the photoshoot to capture my progress. My ultimate growth into being comfortable in my body regardless of what state it is in. I ask, dear followers, for you to join me. May 2014 be the year of You as you are. Sure, goals are great to have to better oneself but the process should not be filled with hate or supreme focus on what you will become. At this very moment, perfection resides within you just like it does within me. Distractions, negative self talk and actions, dark people and environments, and ignorance will make you think otherwise.
I say Fuck That. Let’s do this together!
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